Someone who has a natural face but a 'plastic' heart or someone who has a 'plastic' face but a kind heart? Which is more revolting?

I would choose the former. :) The latter just reminds me of 200 pound beauty. However, the similarity of these two is that we cannot see the inner self aka the heart. People only see the face. Cruel ?!

Well, before the year ends, I am not going to look back but look forward. ^^ Next year is going to be a better year. Ya know why? I'm turning 18... and it's time to dream big and let my thoughts turn into actions.

Our life is like the sky. There is darkness and brightness going on continuously, with a little bit of rain but we still survive through them. :)

As we grow older, we know that everyone is not perfect and people tend to make mistakes. Still, we always secretly search for something perfect in our eyes and always aiming to be perfect. This is the 'so called' human nature...

There is no such thing as value in anyone as we are all priceless.
There is no such thing as loving someone more or less, only love or not love.
There is no such thing as I am more happier than whoever, only happy or not happy.
There is no such thing as you are more important than me as we are all equally important. Equally important to our parents, friends and love ones. :)

I am having lunch now and the minced meat has the exact same taste as the vegetable rice store in my primary school. It just brings back old memories. I totally love this minced meat, so nolstagic. I smiled while having every single bite. Have been searching for it for 4 years after I left primary school and now, I finally found a store that sells the exact same taste of the meat.
It is sad that the food is no longer there in primary school anymore. I miss the swing too, I wonder how much has the school changes? :S

Yes, exams are over but no point of rejoicing. The feeling of waiting for the results is worse than taking the papers. :(

Feeling low without anymore hopes for anything, her self-esteem becomes lower and lower. It is not that she is not trying to look at the positive aspects but the only reason why she is not having high hopes anymore is because that she is afraid of being disappointed again... No matter how strong you are, there will be a tinge of disappointment when something do not go your way.

When you say I love you too much or miss you too much, it does not mean anything anymore when you really mean it....

Sometimes when I see people saying I love you, babe. Miss you, girl. Want to see you so badly, babe with all the mushy stuffs, I cannot tell the difference when they truly mean it or when they do not. See how I reply to such things when its so often? :) yup just a :). Do it at appropriate times, at special times only, ok....people.


~ PS: It can refer to anyone.

I hate that I am so freaking lazy. Imagine how many things I can accomplish if I am not so lazy?

I must thank Jonghyun for this..... Just because of his relationship,

I actually managed to talk to you on msn almost everyday.

Haha, and this causes my classmate to always say msn ah msn ah, everyday msn.

Haha be jealous. Well, I was like that in the past too.

No one to talk to on msn and can only see others typing away on the keyboard

smiling to themselves.

Thx to you, I am also able to turn my 'demotivations' into motivations. :):)

Today, for the first time, someone asked me to go clubbing. For once, I wished I am 18. The feeling is terrible when you say you are underaged. :( I want to go. I was so happy when they asked me. Oh man. Majority of my classmates are already 18 or older.

All these years, people are a little selfish, whether good or bad, they will wish for something deep inside them.

I watched from a show that people in the city always tell each other to be

satisfied with what they have

but it's human nature to want something more.

We can never be satisfied.

They tell us to to look at the poor and compare ourselves with them

but we are different.

They are satisfied with their environment because

some do not get to see what city life are.

Hence, if people give them something, they will be happy.

I find it quite true......

Will you still wish for more if you are in a forlorn island

who do not know city life?

I had always thought our school's reputation would become better over the years but after hearing what my classmate saying that. I was left feeling disappointed and speechless.
A: What secondary school are you from?
Me: Bishan Park
B(her): I heard that Bishan Park is famous for their gangsters and school pregnancy.
I looked at her and gave the wth(serious?) face.
Her school is at at Simei and she can know that BPS is a lousy school. What can I say? What can I do? I do not know how to protect the secondary school that once gave me wonderful memories that poly cannot. I could only swallow my saliva and change topic. She is that hypocrite and she does not look guilty at all.

I dislike hypocrites. One moment, talking to you so nicely then another moment, talking

bad about you behind your back. What's worst is that they still think they are nice and

right. If you give the heck care attitude that you do not care less of this person, then

do not expect people to be nice to you. You can at least think before you jump into

conclusions. People tell me it is their problem if they think it that way and do not care

them but isin't it that this is the problem that causes the world to be full of unhappiness.

You know what, if you are making it obvious to the person that you dislike her, then

it is your fault already because you have just harm an innocent person who did nothing

but only what you imagined out of.

You may not care but some care.

This world is too scary... too scary. You can never know when you are facing

a fake person with a mask on when they do not even realise that.

Wow, this is my 101th post. :) Today is so slack and I learnt some difficult words. Atomistic and holistic... I think I have this love-hate relationship with my studies. Why aren't there any peaceful beaches in Singapore? This place is just too stressful.

Perhaps as technology advances, shows will change too but I'm still excited for cartoons. Guess they were no longer the same as before. 1990s rock. :) The generation where cartoons are the nicest.It's ironic how people used to look forward to the future as the futuristic look is nice but now, as technology advances, we want to turn back time to enjoy our young times.

Oh and one of my guy classmate is disgusting. His laptop wallpaper is a picture of a lady wearing bra and panties and he does not feel embarrassed by it. My classmate does. I do.

Don't know whether to call him a pervert or what.

I miss those young times when I can make mistakes as I was still young. Now that I am a teenager, even a small spelling mistake or wrong pronunciation, people will think you are stupid or have some grammar problem. Those young times when everyone is so nerdy and when no one cares about their looks or get affected by stupid relationship problems.

I finally know why adults like to go back to their young times.

I think I am crazy. You know why?

Now that it is semester 2, I realise I kinda like studying. :/

I am so curious at everything and find everything interesting.

If only I realise that in secondary school. Oh well. It's still not too late. :)

Where have all the wonderful cartoons gone to? Has the creative juices for cartoon ran out or the creators for cartoons just thought that maybe babies nowadays play with computers and psp?

Everytime I switched to any cartoon channels, I will shake head.
I still remember I can watch cartoons the whole day in the past.
I miss powerpuff girls,
scooby doo,
hey arnold,
Dexter's lab
and my all time favourite,
The little lulu show.

I also miss the old school biscuits, kacang puteh that was sold in J8
and milk sweet which my Phillipines's friend will give me.

I still remember how I will eat the icing first before the biscuit.
I also remember the wheel biscuit and many others.
I am glad that they are still being sold.
I will definitely go and find my childhood once again. :)

This whole week was a mess! Could not even concentrate in class because of so many problems. Daily grades that came back were like wth. This semester is important to me and in my dictionary, hapen once will never happen twice. Buck up, Jerlina Loh.

Thank god I made friends :) Bena. Finally a friends that stays in north west like me. :) She even invites me to her house to see her dogs. Can't wait... I hope this will continue and not end up like last semester.


I miss my grandma. I miss her kindness and how she used to protect me but I was so blind to think that I do not need any protection. I miss how we miscommunicate. I dislike how she is gone so fast and I do not get to say goodbye. At least, for once, there was one whom truly care for me. Now, never will I feel that warmth.

Ok, I guess problem solved. I feel a deep relief. I hope it will turn out well and I promised to be a good girl. :) I must start afresh.

If you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it's not because they enjoy solitude. It's because they have tried to blend in with the world but they continued to disappoint them.
~Jodi Picoult

School has started, made new friends, began to feel refreshed and happy with the class but apparently there are still some things that goes wrong. Not related to school though.

My passport expired so that means I am an illegal immigrant. haha but no worries will be making a new one soon, not so soon. lol

I really really think the more I stay at home, the more I feel emo. T_T

I need a wishing bird to take away my stress and bless me for mathematics.

After reading Venus's post,

it jolted to me that as adulthood is approaching,

the more I must learn to be independent

and be ready to let go of my parents' hands.

The day will come where I do not see them anymore

or they do not see me anymore.

Luckily there is still a long period of time to be able to see them

so let's not make this post emotional. haha

Hmm, question of the day....

Why do some celebrities mention that they

do not wear animals' skins but

they are carrying bags made out of animals?

Isn't it the same?

Animals........

Now that it is holidays, I do not know what to blog about.

Can someone give me a job to do....

I wish I can learn a talent.

I think that after this YOG

everyone can know where Singapore is

and what Singapore is.

I cannot stop laughing

how people think Singapore is a part

of China.

It is truly pathetic

that not many people know where

Singapore is.

I do not know why I am feeling this way, so tired.

If a person who is educated means having moral values,

so does that means a person who is educated that does not carry out

his moral values like throwing away litter

uneducated or educated?

I guess I should end this.

As time passes, does this mean that we will be getting further and further

away from each other?

I do not want changes.

I hate changes.

For the fact that

CHANGE

can change our hearts....

I feel so helpless sometimes, coming to school aimlessly. I think having an IG really livens up my poly life. Saturday is the best and the most fun day of my poly life. From there, I can make new friends and can continue to go on with them for three years because I know I am not close to my classmates enough to hang out with them. Starting from the next semester, I am definitely going to be more hyper and lively to have some close friends.

Saturday was so fun helping out at the booth for the science festival in marina square. The best laugh I had since starting poly life. The faci were so kind, offering food and showing care about us. The kids were so curious trying to solve the puzzles and one kid looked like Agnes( Despicable Me). So cute! OMG, her sister said ' The sun is hiding'. I heard the planes flying for the ndp preview. I took home the first prize bear too because there is not enough to give out so they kept it till the end.


What's best is while walking the bridge on my way to the MRT to home, I saw the fireworks! One of my best moments in life.... Will update on the fireworks in the next post. Love it :)

Right now, I want to enjoy my last moments in class with some of my friends. Happy that she talked to me :)

Woohoo, I am proud to announce

*drumrolls*

I got an

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A

for my UT2

cognitive problem solving.

You really cannot take humour well and you did it so whatever you said are nonsense.

I do not care about the colour but your heart is so black.

What's with pause think and response? What do you expect people to think when you are standing there looking at our slides? Bodoh

You, a staff sergeant? Is the CI who appointed you that blind?

* I want to do qns 1*. This statement pisses me off. You did not even do anything and you DARE to tell us you want to present that qns. After that then you realise you do not know how to do and you came running over and ask us to teach you. Think what? Just because you have that illness does not mean you can make use of it and not do any work. Sorry no cure. We want to pity you but given your attitude, bye bye. The facilitators are blind to pity you when they do not know what is happening.

wow. My school is currently having a Carrefour sales. I cannot tell if it is cheap or the normal price.

Anyway, 2 more weeks~ yippee

I can finally say bye bye to you!

I think I should also explore every part of my school otherwise it will be too late if I graduated.
The lecture room is so cool with all the speakers for every seat.

Haha, I am so random.

gone are the long lost memories~ gone of youth~

Who want to go with me after school? I am so bored.

Why is it that nowadays the days pass by so quickly?

I know I am looking forward to the holidays

but this is way too fast.

After so long, I finally had a good laugh today, and Regina is coming over to my school now :)

Why are we humans born in this world?

If we are just alive to go through obstacles,

suffer and die in the end,

then what's the use of living?

To find friends and meaning in life?

So what?

we will still DIE IN THE END.

If a person can love one without a reason, so can a hater?

I knew it from the start.

What a pity?

Why is my lovely clique experiencing so many things

this past few days?

Stupid poly life

Its so hard to impress everyone when you are trying to do your own things and impress every individual person.

I give up

Hate me or like me

I don't care.

Sometimes, honesty hurts. Yup, I agree.

Assumptions. It happen to everyone, everywhere

every hour, every minute, every seconds

Who does not assume?

Sometimes assumptions can hurt friendship

and ruin your impression of a person.

When we realise we are wrong, it is too late.

Why are you so contradicting? You hated that he complained about you in front of the faci, but you wrote and complained about him in your RJ too. RJ is for you to reflect and relate the problem to yourself, not complain about others. 5 more weeks. I shall endure!

Omg, I just found out that the lessons and license for learning how to drive is $1200. Plus, you must be prepared to fail the lessons. Maybe I should delay the time to earn some money to be able to learn how to drive.


One more year to being 18 years old. The year where things start to change a little. Should I...



My friend just told me something. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! IMpossible. It will never happen. I don't believe.

You are so gay!!!!

Jane has always struggled with 3D trigonometry in her Math lessons. When she asked her female friends, they cannot help her. However, her male classmates solved the problems with ease. Her aunt told her that it is because of girls having weaker spatial thinking. Do you agree with her aunt? Justify your stand. Sounds familiar?
I remember Mr lock mentioning this too. haha.


Are you wrong? yes you are wrong, if i do not know what are you researching, how am I supposed to do my part of researching... You piss me off. ~_~

My class is really really too boring! I need to laugh, shareen and ..., where are you? I need my daily dose of laughter so I can diao them. Perhaps the school is too big that everywhere I go, I see different people. I guess I like the feeling of closeliness and the fact that we can talk about people we know.

I am struggling with physics and A math. T_T




Not looking forward to it~ Can I just walk away?

Why do you need to be so fierce? So what if you are older, do you need to be so rude and talk to me like some know-it-all person. Tsk.

WTH, three weeks later after holidays is UT2. That means I have 2 weeks left to UT. Have to start to study and understand the freaking A Math. T_T

I do not know if I am slow or what but I found out that Pluto is not a planet! Wow. There is only 8 planets left.

Everything is so rushed. Wonder whether it is the right thing to do... Felt that it is so troublesome but I can't just ruin it. Come to think of it, someone... hai~

Hey, I guess most people thought chickens are just called chickens. During my eureka camp, I realised chickens have a scientific name called 'gallus gallus domesticus' or 'gallus domesticus'. Many other animals have their scientific names too. How cool!

The past one week holiday had been fruitful so far.

Had fun and learnt some things.

Here are all the jump shots.

Ok, after seeing all the jump shots photo, I admit Jie's darling shot of them

is quite successful. Had some more pics of jump shot but

errr... the tummy is shown so better not post later you guys paiseh. HAHAHA

Went out with Regina too to get our Mum's bday present

and went to Roland restaurant to eat dinner for Mum's bday. Super ex.

Ooh, I had no idea I am in an IG alr.

Well anyway, went for the 1 day camp.

The pics of admiralty park that we went for tour...

the super dirty water >.<

The monitor lizard in the water where I circled, super small.

Looking forward to the 2nd week of my holiday. :):):)

Life is like the campfire. You will be high at first but once you go low, you have the firewood(friends) to help you be high again. :):):)



Lousy but copyrighted. haha

Ok, here is the belated update on the wedding of my cousin that I have attended.

In the wedding church
The bride and her father

Then headed to Fairmont hotel for wedding dinner.

The ice sculpture.

Telephone booth... so cool

I like the feeling in the wedding church, so holy.

I will be waiting for *ahem* *ahem* someone's wedding soon in future.

I am so glad that I do not have a boyfriend. My classmate is so troubled by her boyfriend's problems that I do not know how to console her. She is so upset and is harassed by phonecalls by her boyfriend. He even threatened her. The situation is so scary and it is all because of the boyfriend. Hai, seeing her stressed over this make me feel moody.

I have learnt my lessons and reached school early today!!! Majority of them are late, haha. They did not care about the school rules anymore.

Today's module is so confusing. I understand why they say that..... My class is like teasing this girl because the weirdo in my class like her and call her 'Pinky'. She is provoked until she seems to be a little crazy now... There is this guy who is so annoying, the second '........'.



Going to update soon of the event.

While on my way to school just now, I saw something terrible of an army guy. Something not good to the environment, Venus. I'm on the the first bus and there is a second bus behind. As the first bus is going off this guy is chasing after the second bus but he is smoking. Hence, he SMOKE ALL HE CAN and threw it onto the GRASS. Yes, the grass. WTH. Totally pull down the reputation of the army.



Have you ever seen anyone taking credit just like that? Well, there is this girl in my class who don't know how to do a question then she ask B(another girl). After that during lesson, when the faci ask the question, the girl gave the answer and she got the credit(good job). WTH.Just because she know how to talk, she got the credit. TSK

I'm so bored.... Still in school at 7plus. Nothing to do, only slack.

Went home at 7.30, my school is so cool, it is open 24hours... and I realised that it is not as quiet as I thought because the library will be packed full of people. Know why? cos there are pool tables to play. Just change teams all over again after 5 weeks, hope I am not in the same team as that weirdo, I really can't stand him. Plus, he seriously caused the class daily grade's to be pulled down as he said out LOUD that we used the 6p to cheat but in actual fact, we did not.

Went for so many talks already but still do not have my CE points. Please come to me. Acceptance into NYAA also please come to me...

My birthday celebration was great thx to the clique!! :)

Do not want to write details because I believe we

all know it best in our heart :)

Regina, don't worry,

we will definitely celebrate your birthday.

Provided you are free, cos you are not free last yr

so cant celebrate.

Have not opened presents yet. hahaha

slow hor?

next is brianna's birthday,

excited eh?

we shall go to the zoo to find your friends

to celebrate with you...

XD

kidding...

When I got on to google, I saw that it is Pyotr llyich Tchaikovsky's bday... a person who passes away sadly, do not know who is he but wanna congrats him. I'm thankful for those who wish me in the morning and last night.

I do not believe in repeating the words shown in presentation slides. We must rephrase our words or simplify what the thing is and not say out every sentence shown in the slide...

Freaking hell!!!

Early morning wanna take bus to school,

then in the bus,

the auntie push me to go and tap her card....

Can't she wait, anyway she's going down the same stop as me....

However, once is never enough as

she has to push me a second time when the bus door open.

I literally fell. ):

What's the rush????

If you ever thought of the rich, think of the poor.
If you ever thought of eating a lot, think of the hungry ones...
When you think that you are suffering in school, think of the poor who are not studying
When you hate your house, think of the ones without a home
When you hate your family, think of the ones without their family members...
When you think you hate Singapore, think of the disasters in other countries...
All these makes me feel peaceful at heart...

:)

Gosh, I can't stand the smell of this smoker beside me during class. The stench is there. Super strong.... If I sit beside him everyday, can die...




Updated...
Super angry, there is a stupid UT dry run on friday. Cannot be released early. :(( WTH

I miss my clique!!!

Maybe that is why I have been making friends that has

almost the same personality as them...

2 from UG groups and 1 is a malaysian. haha

Have been signing up for many talks.

Will be very busy in the coming weeks.

Assignments are getting more and more too. :(

I miss shareen's laughter...

I miss playing with alida.

I miss venus's dumbness. XD

I miss regina's talk about np.

I miss brianna's hyperness.

I miss seeing wan jun eat her bread.

:)

I don't know why do I feel so excited about it when I know I will be disappointed.



PS. It is not what you think it is...

Went to J8 for a movie date with my two sweeties...

Bought tickets and headed to long john silver,

shared a meal and off we go walking

around to BHG, stupid security guard told us no pictures

so we stopped but he followed us out of the place.

tsk tsk

watched monga and we were debating about whether Monk is gay or not.

LOL

Felt bored so walked over to the bus interchange

Act cute.

Jie so pretty!

Only picture of us

Acting like a retard. Haha

Friendship bracelet...

Went for dinner at foodcourt

Hope there will be another great outing coming up with the clique :)

Today as I go to poly, I suddenly thought of this.

I guess everyone have adapted to their poly or JC life but i do miss my sec sch life.

The days when we stay in class to chat and eat bread,

went to the back of school,

laughed like mad,

being stressed for o'levels,

gossip about the teachers

and so on...

I really hope Shareen can make it for this saturday's outing.

xoxo~

Yesterday,the clique can't go out so only left Jie and me. :(

We ate swensens, yum

then went off to vivo to walk walk.

Bought a book and some others.

When it is time for dinner, we went back to bishan

to wait for Regina.

While waiting for Regina

All of us chose the same food!!!

After that, went to funan but found that the shops are all closed

so Regina bought her shoe bag and headed back home.

Just two days ago,

we went northpoint to wait for regina to come over.

While waiting, we ate ice cream.

After that, we played truth or dare.

Went to buy our lunch and pop over to regina's place

to play pool.

LOL

Sadly, there is only 4 of us. should have more people

then it will be more fun.

Hey guys, we must meet up more often next time

when you have the time... :)